Jul 20, 2011

WIFE WEIGHS IN WEDNESDAY:Tap into the strength you have within

Losing Who I Was
I've been thinking a lot lately about the beginning of my journey to where I am now. And how many times before this, that I had started and stopped and started and stopped again and again and again finding the slightest motivation to be a little more active and eat a little healthier. But, a couple months later finding myself back where I started and wondering why. Why didn't I stick with it?

As I put on the weight after marriage, I really feel like I was oblivious to what I was turning myself into in a way. And suddenly I was trapped, and felt like there was no way out. I honestly feel like I lost myself for those years of being so heavy, so weighted down physically and emotionally. Mentally I was there I remember every bit of it.

Someone close to me asked me last year in a private conversation, "What happened to the lively, silly, unique, imaginative, Karlie I used to know?" It hit me hard. I really wasn't the same fun person I used to be. And for what? Food? Laziness?

A little while after that I found it. I found a place inside of me where I started to believe in myself again.

Maybe you are are searching for your "real" self again, or maybe you have already found that in our journey, you aren't oblivious because you are reading this. Who is the "real" you? Imagine yourself at your best.

I watched Extreme Makeover Weight Loss Edition and it really related to me this week . Chris Powell's words spoke to me:

 "Tap into that strength you have within" 
"Do whatever it takes" 
It took a lot for me. It was hard to give up the things I was comfortable with.

"Don't play the victim"  
"I lost my job" or "My parents did nothing for my health growing up" 

"Don't blame"  
Take responsibility for your actions: I know for a fact my parents and my siblings blamed Mike for my weight gain, It wasn't Mike putting the food in my mouth it wasn't Mike making me sit on the couch all day. I chose that. I did this to myself.

When are you going to start caring about you?  
A major thing for me when I got married and had kids. Everyone else came first. I let myself go. It hurt not only me but everyone around me. Care about yourself. Give yourself that time to be you.

Are you ready to start living again? 
Because getting healthy and fit brings you back to life.

The Turning Point
I remember the moment, a few weeks into the beginning of my journey. It was my turning point it was the key to my success.
I had Mike take my picture so I would never forget
Loosing weight to me was a very personal thing not many people knew of my goals. I wasn't very open about it.

I refused to go to the gym because of how it made me feel so I waited til it was late at night to go outside and walk when no one could really see or recognize me.

I walked for a while and then I started to run at 270 something pounds... it hurt. I could barely pick up my feet let alone the pace but I pushed myself I pushed SO HARD I kept going...... I could barely breath. I felt like throwing up. I was shaking and so angry at myself. I cried while I ran a little farther until I literally could not go another step. I knew at that moment.......... that was my last day at 270 something pounds. I knew it in my heart. I imediately felt a calmness and peace. I continied to walk the rest of the way home........and NEVER looked back.

Take all your tears and all that CRAP and DRIVE IT INTO THE WALL! Take it and put it all into your workouts. PUSH YOURSELF PAST YOUR LIMIT! LET IT OUT. Your hard work will pay off. It will. As much effort as you put into it, it will.



  1. very good advise you've listed here. Thank you.

  2. Karlie, you look amazing. I am so impressed with you guys. xoxoxo!

  3. Thanks for the inspiring post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  4. Love this post. So much good in every sentence!

  5. Karlie you look amazing! I am so proud of you. This post literally made me tear up. Even though I have lost quite a bit of weight I still struggle with all those things inside and struggle to find the self control that I want to have so that food doesn't win over happiness. What most people don't understand is that it is not about being skinny. It's about being healthy, not trapped by your body and not being a slave to food. It is a constant battle for me. I've never hit my "real" goal and I'm struggling to push myself past that "comfortable" point. But I know I'll get there. Thank you for your inspiration!

  6. Wow, Karlie... that is incredible. I know how hard it is to lose just 10 pounds- I can't even imagine how difficult it would be to lose 64. Congratulations. You look absolutely stunning- and I'm sure you feel tons better, as well :)

  7. You are one smart woman!
    You look fabulous.

  8. You look great and I'm glad that you have found what works! I'm glad you have the motivation to keep yourself going every day!


  9. Wow my sweet girl that was so powerful, and hit me hard not only because Im still battling to find me again, but because I see my beautiful, fun Karlie again. I love you and I am so proud of you, and thank you for shaing so much that is private, it helps me and I know it helps others. One more thing I never blamed Mike because your in marriage together, it always takes two. I love you too Mike. Mom

  10. Karlie, I think what you and your husband are doing is amazing. I recently reached my own turning point of sorts. I've been wanting to be healthier for some time and something finally clicked. I'm reading Eat to Live by Dr. Joel Fuhrman and I think it's wonderful. If you have a chance to read it, I highly recommend it. Good luck to you both as you continue on your journey!

  11. Tiffany Green Tolbert said...

    Karlie! You look awesome! Way to go!!!

  12. Lizzie Markham McGee said...

    Great job!

  13. Jolene Grisham said...

    You look AMAZING Karlie, love you!!

  14. Kayla Thurman said...

    Karlie you look so good! All of your hard work has paid off :)

  15. Looking AMAZING! I need some of your motivation my way! Keep it up!

  16. I freaking love you Karlie! You are SUCH an inspiration!!! And girl you lookin' FINE!!!

  17. The other day when I ran into you while out walking my dog I wanted to tell you how inspiring you and Mike are for me. I wanted to to tell you how beautiful you look. I wanted to tell you how proud I am of you. But, I was so embarrassed about myself and how I looked I couldn't do it. I couldn't get the words out of my mouth. I wanted to run and hide.

    So, I am telling you NOW just how much I admire you and Mike and the journey you are taking together towards a happier and healthier future.

  18. Jody Arrington Nice said...

    That is so awesome ~ keep up the good work. Your an amazing girl!

  19. Tara Carpenter said...

    Karlie you're amazing! I love your guys' blog and it's so great that you've come so far! Thanks for everything!

  20. Lindsay Ludwig said...

    What an amazing and inspiring story! You are beautiful!!

  21. Katie Mae Ferguson said...

    Very inspiring story, Karlie! Thanks for sharing.

  22. Karlie- You look absolutely AMAZING!!! Your'e story is so inspiring and I think your advice is not only for those struggling with weight, but it could be with anything we want to change about ourselves. Thanks for the inspiration and by the way, I'm in love with your shirt!! :)

  23. Karlie!!!!!!!! You look incredible. I am ever impressed and look up to you both. We love you!!!!!!! Keep up the good work!

  24. Karlie!!! I'm so excited that you and Mike are pushing forward to a better healthy life!!! I so remember your spritual side of you, and the love, and happiness, and fun side too! Your a special gal, let you be you again, and never give you... I LOVE YOU SWEETIE. And this post made me cry... I LOVE YOU!!! Corinne

  25. Karlie looks fantastic! Way to go you guys. How inspiring.

  26. Blaire Nelson said...

    Dang! Way to go, I need to be more like you!

  27. Krista Manning said...

    Way to go, that is awesome!

  28. Alicia Arlene said...

    YOU LOOK AMAZING! Good job! :)

  29. Trudie Ann Davis said...

    Karlie, you and Mike are doing so well - you have inspired so many people Thanks for your friendship.

  30. Amy Jennings said...

    Karlie, you look FANTASTIC!!!

  31. Wow, I am overwhelmed with the kindness. Thank you everyone. I won't let any of you down. With these next few months of hardcore workouts and my new healthy lifestyle there really is NO stopping me :) Good luck to all of you!

  32. So many people think there is a magic trick or an easy way with weight loss and getting fit. But there isn't. Hard work, but, yes, you will get there. Thanks for the inspiring post.

  33. Linda Cooper said...

    Karlie, not only do you LOOK amazing, you ARE amazing! Way to go! I applaud you all the way! :)

  34. Mary Barney said...

    You go girl!! :)

  35. Tricia Newland said...

    Wow Karlie!!! It is such a hard thing to do!! You have every reason to be so proud of yourself!! You have no idea how many people you will inspire. Thanks for sharing!!

  36. You look amazing! Your hard work & determination shows:-) I've always hidden in my fat and it really hasn't been until recent years that I've taken the time to truely discover why & to find the real me in there. I'm doing it now and this time, because I am taking the time to 'find me', I will succeed. Look out world, I'm coming out! LOL;-)

  37. I heat your posts. I have spent a long time trying to figure out who the real is me. I have been hiding out of fear. Fear of change, fear of failure, and now I am finally figuring it out and I love that I am starting to be comfortable with who I am! Thanks for another great post

  38. Hey Mike & Karlie,

    Found my way here via No More Bacon's Manly Fitness Bloggers blog post (phew, that's a mouthful... an not *entirely* accurate as I'm commenting on Karlie's post, right? Heh.). I'm rebooting my weight loss & blogging and am looking to connect with other weight loss blogging types (amazing how Google Reader can die out after two years).

    I wanted to comment/say hello here rather than the most recent post because of something she said that hit home with me: "Take all your tears and all that CRAP and DRIVE IT INTO THE WALL! Take it and put it all into your workouts." I've found taking all the negative thoughts and anger and depression and everything that goes along with being overweight for a long, long time and turning it into anger and fuel for making that change is pretty dagum helpful. At least for me, it's easy to sit around a mope (while I eat poorly). I should be smart and take all that mopiness and transform it into something useful.

    Enough rambling though!

    I really like the blog and think it's awesome that Karlie's decided to take the step of blogging on Wednesdays, too.

    Drop on by and check mine out sometime at becoming.willphillips.org.

  39. Tiffany (Garner) Lindsey said...

    Way to go Karlie! You are amazing and inspiring! Thanks for posting this. I have gained a lot of weight being married and I don't have any kids of my own yet. (Unless you count my stepson, but I didn't carry him for 9 months.) I decided to start working out again because I don't like buying a bigger size of clothing every year. When I got married I was a size 12 and now I'm a 14/16. I'm working on getting my weight back under control again. I don't know exactly how much I have gained, but it feels like a lot. I want my new "married stomach" to go away. If I was pregnant that would be one thing, but I'm not, and I need to do something about it. Hope you are doing well. :) Thanks again for your post!

  40. I just found this blog today.

    I actually am crying after reading this. It gives me complete hope. I have tried so many times and failed every time, to lose this weight. But something in me just doesn't want to give up. You are inspiring, and I know I can do this too! <3